Feelings.

How am I feeling today? Not sure. A bit sad, and blue, annoyed by the sudden sunlight. A bit alone in this country with millions and house with 2 other occupants; a bit desperate, wanting a life and feeling at a loss as to how to get it. A bit selfish, wanting to be heard, needing to be held and comforted and reassured that everything will be fine. A lot skeptical, knowing deep in my mind's heart that it will not, in fact, be fine. A bit tired of constantly swimming against current, of threading to stay afloat. A bit numb, acking so hard to feel and yet, like a coward, fearing so strongly to do so. There's no excitement, no zest for life though I wish there was. There's no smile on my lips, no warmth in my eyes, except for that of the tears welling in them. There's the comforting feeling of pity that warms me like a blanket. That's all there is.

About this shot: Trees near Transco's Water Wall. Houston, TX